When The Scars Align

Twinkle twinkle little scar
How I wonder where you are
On the knees and seen with the eyes?
Or deeper inside, beneath and besides.

We all have them. Scars tell the tales of our traumas. They are permanent markers from times of suffering or dis-ease.

Some of us have scars on the outside, and some of us have scars on the inside.

Most of us have them on both.

Bikram Yoga is Therapy for where our scars are.

Posture Tip-Head To Knee 

Don’t just Tuck your chin to your chest. Touch your chin to your chest.

This is not a stretching pose, it is a compression posture.

The goal is to create maximum pressure to the abdomen and throat. It is a marriage between compression and extension between the pancreas and kidneys, thyroid and pituitary glands.

Even by doing just 5% of the posture you get 100% benefit, as long as you are trying the right way and don’t give up.

Weight For Me 

When I was 20 I hiked the Appalachian Trail. At 2190 miles, it’s the longest hiking only footpath in the world. For 6 months I carried my possessions in a pack on my back and walked in the woods, from Georgia to Maine.

When I started the journey I carried a lot. I had a 52 pound backpack and 100 tons of grief from the loss of my sister Kristen.

I realized quickly that carrying such weight around would make every step even more difficult than it already was.

I had to really think deeply about what I needed to be holding onto. 

So, I cut the handle off of my toothbrush in hopes of saving an ounce. I ripped the pages from my journal to save me from the weight of the binder. I let go of the disappointment in myself that I couldn’t save her.

Turns out letting go of things, even if they seem small and irrelevant, can add up and have a great impact on how we are able to move forward.

Ultimately I got the pack down to 45 pounds. But the weight off my shoulders from learning to let go was far greater.

Now my path is different. A 2000 sq ft hot yoga room.

Still though, it’s plenty of room to work on letting go.

I Practice To Eat

I have Crohn’s Disease. I’ve had it my whole life. They say there’s no cure.

It’s a torturous thing, and those affected suffer in silence. Nobody likes to talk about digestive problems.

For the first 34 years of my life I couldn’t eat most fruits or vegetables. No nuts, grains, coffee, red meat, wheat, dairy. I was in and out of the hospital and had to constantly juggle medications and their various side effects.

It’s not like that anymore.

You see, 5 years ago I became symptom free. Diet independent. I can eat whatever I’d like. No meds. No docs. I can have spinach and peanut butter and apples for the first time in my life.

With Bikram Yoga, I changed my own physiology from the inside out. I have reclaimed my body. I have my life back.

It wasn’t easy. Or fast. But doable.

So now I practice 5 or 6 times a week so I can maintain my digestive health and enjoy all the wonderful foods life has to offer. So I can sit and have a coffee with my dog by my feet. So I have the choice.

I remember long ago giggling to myself when the teacher would inform us during Wind Removing Pose that we were massaging the ascending  and descending colon.

I don’t giggle anymore.


If you know of someone with Crohn’s please don’t hesitate to share my story and contact info. There is no need to suffer, and no need for silence.